Self Talk

I would like to share with you a poem I came across years ago. I hope it will resonate with you too. 

 

"Here I am.

Wondering how to heal my life.

Book after book.

Payer after Prayer.

Affirmation after affirmation.

My heart hurts.

Nothing seems to make much difference.

I must be really messed up.

More than most. 

 

No music.

No radio.

No TV. 

Just me.

In silence.

 

I hear something.

What is it?

Who is it?

It's my own voice.

Inside my own mind.

Now I must be crazy.

Oh well, I will listen.

Nothing else has worked.

I am listening to you, whoever you are.

 

I am your unconscious mind, please just listen. 

I have so much to say, so much to show you.

I have been holding it all for so many years.

I don't know what you want to keep and what you want to throw away.

So I have kept it all for you because I love you. 

 

When you stay busy, it is hard to get your attention.

I bumped your head. You swore and called me names.

I made you sick... you filled the silence with TV.

I shared my feelings of rejection... you ate too much.

I showed you pictures of your pain... you went jogging. 

I played and replayed that fight you had... you read a book about relationships. 

 

Am I so terrifying to be with?

I am you... You are me... We are the same person. 

When I hurt, you do to. When you are happy, so am I.

Let's talk. Let's listen. Let's get in synch with each other. 

Let our messages become pure and singular in meaning. 

Together we have choices and power to create a beautiful life. 

Let's start fresh, now, today."

 

 

Light Thoughts by Marlana - No.38

Contributed by Raju Jagtiani